Daily Spread 2/13/17

Hello,

Here is my daily draw for February 13th, 2017!

From Wild Unknown: Ace of Cups
From Happy Tarot: Seven of Cups

This draw really resinated with my day. I re-began my emotional journey with my sibling. We bonded over a phone call. I reached out to them for the first time in a very long time. And I want to continue to do that. So that to me was the ace of cups showing through for my day.

As for the seven of cups, I also felt really emotionally and spiritually overwhelmed today. I felt spiritually overwhelmed and lost because I felt like I should know everything about my practice and tarot by now. When, in reality, it is all a journey. But for a moment I forgot that it was so, and felt so destroyed by my passionate ambition. So, I went and talked to the campus Caplin. And she was very helpful and offered such a grounding energy. And some ideas on how to ground myself, which was so helpful and kind of her to do.

Overall, it was a rollercoaster day.

And it was beautiful.

~Amanda

Daily Reading 2/12/17

Hello,

Here is my daily reading for February 12th, 2017!

I skipped yesterday's post because both cards were The Hermit (my favorite cards in the universe), and so my reading called for reflection and I just didn't feel like sharing what those reflections were.

Anyway, today's reading!

From The Wild Unknown: Five of Swords
From The Happy Tarot: Three of Swords

I was really shook when I first saw these cards, I thought I was in for a really shitty day.

But I was not.

The key word for the five of swords is self-destruction. Now, this sounds hella scary. But, what I get from it is a warning, the card is saying "Hey, you are on a path that leads to bad things, stop it". And the three of swords says "you're getting tangled in your emotions, cut some ties to them". So both were saying for me to stop what I'm doing and reevaluate the situation. So I reached out and talked to my friends more today and started doing little good things for myself. I even emailed a professor, which is something that gives me a lot of anxiety.

Not so bad after all.

~Amanda

Daily Reading and a Celtic Cross

Hello,

Here are my daily card readings for February 10th, 2017!

From the Wild Unknown: Daughter of Swords
From the Happy Tarot (Giddy): The Hanged Man

At first, these cards seriously confused me and it wasn't until I did a Celtic Cross spread with the Wild Unknown that it started to make sense. But From what I gather now from just these two cards, A) I'm being so critical of my honest self (Wild Unknown) and B) My perspective is going to change (Happy Tarot).

Like I said earlier, I was confused with these two cards and didn't immediately understand what the cards were trying to tell me, so I did a Celtic Cross spread with the Wild Unknown.

And it looks a little something like this.

1) The Heart of the Matter, The Chariot: Confidence, Strong Will, Achievement
2) Opposing Factors, Mother of Cups: Insightful, Psychic, Intuition
3) Root Cause, Five of Swords: Self-Destruction, Pain, Doing something you know to avoid.
4) Past, Daughter of Swords: Honest, Insightful, Watching, Observing, Frankness,
5) Goal,  Judgement: Forgiveness,  Seeking Truth, Personal Freedom
6) Future(if you don't listen to cards), Five of Cups: Despair, Grief, Disappointment, Regret
7) You (Well, me), Mother of Swords: Sharp, Perceptive, All-seeing, Knowledgable,
8) External Forces, Eight of Wands: Sudden Change, Clarity
9) Hopes/Fears, The Devil: Addiction,  Negativity,
10)Final Outcome (After listening and following the cards), Ace of Pentacles: Prosperous Beginnings, grounding your future, wealth.

Whew~ There's a lot going on here.

A few observations
1) My daily card is in there (The Daughter of Swords)
2) Theres a lot of swords going on in this spread.
3) But there is at least one from every suit in the spread (Swords, cups, wands, pentacles)

So What does it mean?

It means that my confidence in general and faith is lacking because I am also lacking confidence in myself/intuition. The cause of this is pain and holding on to what is not serving me. In the past, I was very observant and able to let go. My goal is to "rise from the ashes" and free myself from what is no longer helping me. If I don't listen to the cards, there will be despair. I am observant right now, but not like before. I'm becoming hyper-critical of myself and what I am doing faith-wise. I'm still not sure about the sudden change that is giving me clarity, perhaps this reading? My fear is to be addicted to the negativity and pain of the past/present. And Finally, if I can stay grounded and faithful to myself and values and beliefs, a good future with the divine will come.

~Whew.

That was a lot of information, but it does answer the question I asked the cards.

"Why do I feel so lost?"

Because I am in my head and emotions too much and need to stay grounded! That's the short answer anyway.

Really cool.

~Amanda

Bonding With My Decks and Daily Reading

Hello,

As I mentioned in my last post, I am very new to tarot, my love for it only being a few months old. So, my first challenge as been to bond with my two tarot decks that I have. After googling, reading other people's blogs, and watching youtube videos, I have come across a few ways that work for me. However, at the same time, one deck, my Wild Unknown, still remains elusive and a mystery to me. 

Get it, because it is the Wild Unknown? 

I thought that was funny...

Anyway, my other deck, The Happy Tarot, was very open to me and very open about itself.  I mentioned before that I researched ways to bond with tarot decks and the most common way was to sleep with the deck(s) and to do daily readings. So I did both. 

And boy was it an adventure. 

Two nights ago I slept next to both of my decks, Happy Tarot insisted on being next to my heart, whereas Wild Unknown didn't specify a place, so I cuddled with it. The energy from Happy Tarot was so intense and giddy that I could not sleep until the sun came up, and even then  it was hard. So I got three hours of sleep, but I really got to bond with that deck. The word Giddy also chanted in my head like a mantra, and my heart said that this was the name of my Happy Tarot deck. So that deck wants to be called Giddy. The energy from this deck is like a young child, and normally that would scare me because children give me anxiety, but with Giddy, it was so tender, so sincere, so innocent. I have never had a maternal instinct, but I have one for Giddy.

This may be why I am having trouble bonding with Wild Unknown. Because Giddy is so, well giddy, Wild Unknown's energy got overshadowed. So I guess I just need to be careful of managing their energies. 

Last night I slept with Wild Unknown under my pillow and though this time I slept, I did not get any energy from this deck. So I feel a little lost with this deck. 

The other suggestion I remember and have been trying is to do daily readings with one card. I'd like to share my thoughts on what my cards were for today. 

Starting from left to right, the Wild Unknown card is the three of wands and Giddy's card is the fool. 

I have had these cards on my bedside table all day and am now reflecting on them after some of my day has gone by. The three of wands is a card says to me as a "form your own opinions". There is also a sense of intuition and reflection, claiming your future, and clarifying goals. 

Whew~

I don't know how to go about this card to be honest. It could apply to so many things that I don't know where to begin. Looking at the image on the card, the colors are inside the wands, and my core says "Let them out".  The triangle is also pointing inward and at me. So maybe I need to release my colors and stop hiding my true self. 

That is a lot to think about. 

The fool card says to me that I am beginning an exciting adventure. And the image is so carefree and the fool is jumping off the cliff with his whole body. So, maybe that is how I should approach the three of wands card. 

This daily draw was kind of beautiful if not a bit intimidating. 

And I still don't know how to approach my Wild Unknown deck. Maybe I just need to take a plunge with it and be honest and stop hiding. I really need to just use it. 

~Amanda

An Introduction (Who IS This Kid?)/ My Intentions

Hello,

My name is Amanda, I have been practicing Wicca since I was thirteen, but have always been a spiritual being. One thing that I feel is essential to my spiritual journey/grounding/expression is tarot cards. Since I was a kid I have been fascinated by them and their artwork. But I never really understood or appreciated their complexity. I was intimidated by them. After all, there are 78 cards in each deck, which all have their own meanings, and everyone already knows what they mean and I don't, and they have personalities and names and what if I can't be intuitive enough?!

Whew~

This is my journey to answer these questions and to ask more questions. I want to dive into tarot. This is me taking the plunge. This is me being part of the tarot community, the pagan community, the world community.

~~~~~~~~~

My intentions with this blog/journal is to show myself and discipline myself into the tarot. If that makes sense. I want tarot to be a practice for me. And I want to show myself my core or spirit. What is really going on in my mind, spirit, heart, even body.  This is about discovery and expansion and connection.

And I am so excited.

~Amanda.